Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Freedom and Dreamland

My co-worker was out the past two days and I feel like I got more done without her ass. I enjoyed it a lot.

I dreamed I was at a store near where my ex lives and he was there. Apparently he worked there. He asked me what I was doing there and I told him his store had what I was looking for. He seemed skeptical. Not sure why. I patted him gently on the forehead to try and let him know that everything was okay.

I dreamed we were in a video game. I forgot which game it was but there were zombies everywhere. I knew it was a game but it still scared me a lot and I didn't like it because of my bad nerves. There was one part where one of the dudes let himself get infected so that he could fight them or something. He turned into a snake and I smashed up his snake body before I destroyed his human head. It was strange. There was also something about a cat and that we lost a lot of people when the zombies attacked us.

I dreamed that I was at Eric's house. His mom called his cell phone and he was talking to her. I asked him something and he was trying to whisper to me so that his mom wouldn't hear. Eventually she hung up on him and called the house phone. She was being a real pain to Eric so he took a sharp thing and sliced his wrist open. He did it a few times and then we went downstairs so he could put his blood all over her car.

I have some wild ass dreams man.

Monday, August 17, 2009

My Journey

I am 125 pounds. Whoo! So excited. I can't wait to be 120 again, and then 115, 110, and finally 105. XP Root for me!

Also I dreamed about pot last night. A pot club with rules and stuff. It was really wild.


Things have been well recently for the most part. I haven't been feeling 100% myself because of this pain I get in my ovary area every month, but I'm okay. I'm happy, I have my puppy, the weather is nice (as in HOT D: ), and yeah. So on the overall, everything is amazing.

Oh yeah, meet Eric:

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Dream Land

I was hanging out with Jason's mom, she took me home to their place and I was hanging out. I was using my computer in their kitchen and it made them mad. I wanted to leave and see Eric but I didn't want him to know I was at Jason's first. I was trying to turn off the music to my computer too, but it wouldn't turn off. (This was due to the fact that I had music playing when I fell asleep.)
Then I moved in with this girl who calls herself Kai (the real Kai is a boy). I wanted to see Eric but she wouldn't let me. I don't remember what happened but she wanted me. So we were fighting for my freedom. I think Eric tried to help but I didn't want him to. So he was helpless on the sidelines as I fought to the death with this psycho who became Pink. Yes, she became Pink of all people. I kept giving her lethal blows and she was playing unfair by staying alive. I grabbed a pole and shoved it THROUGH her eye and the back of her skull and she kept coming. I cut her head in HALF and she kept coming. Then a police officer came and asked me what happened. I told him and he kissed me a couple of times telling me I should be more safe, that I should use protection as well (I told him that I had sex with her). I thought it was weird the cop kissed me. Eric and Pink were there but the cop had me in a way that no one could see that he was kissing me. Then he took the girl away and I woke up.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Buu~ u.u

So I got some clothes to-day because I really needed shorts and they were soooo cute! But they were also a size 9/10 and 11. Which made me feel fat. D: BUT- They were hip shorts, so of course it'd be bigger since I have wide hips. Still, made me feel fat. I also got some shirts and they were marked Large. WTH? >:| I hate the clothing industry.

STILL! They are all cute and awesome, so I'll live.

Why must things happen to you that I cannot remedy? You have no idea how much my heart aches.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Waist: 30

So give me a wewt wewt!

I lost 3 inches on my waist line! Yaaay! I can put on and take off my pants without opening them up! It is so cool and soooo goooood!!! XD

I'm so excited and I can't wait to go to the next meeting to see how much weight I lost. Everyone's been noticing it too; I look thinner!!!

I'm so excited, you have no idea. I'm going to be sexy in no time! XD


Sunday, August 2, 2009


So this may sound strange to anyone reading this but I am gender confused. It's hard to explain but I'll do my best.

I am a woman, first of all. I was born a woman and have all the woman parts. Theoretically, as this has not been tested, I can give birth.

At the same time, however, I feel as if I were a man sometimes. This is where is gets strange, heh. Sometimes I feel like I have the body of a man, and I know that I have the mentality of a man. There are so many things that I feel when I'm feeling this way. I feel as if I really know what it means to be a boy or man. I've asked a few guys I know what it's like and what they've told me is how I've felt before.

There are some days I wish I could dress like a boy but my body is too feminine. I have a woman's shape, a woman's face, and a woman's voice. Blah. Curse my body. XD

Aye, but don't be confused. I never want to turn myself into a boy. This is just how I feel sometimes. I love being a woman and I love my body (some days). I don't want to permanently change that at all. I just want to cut my hair, bind my chest, and pretend I am a boy. Heh.

I don't think I'll ever pull it off. Ah well, at least I got it off my chest.

Get it? XD I am so corny.

Thursday, July 30, 2009


It sucks when you have to get up in the morning. But I don't have to get up in the morning. Still, my sleep schedule is destroyed.

Eric seems okay right now, I hope he continues to be okay.

I failed my math test. I'm sure my insomnia didn't help. I'm not used to failing tests so this kind of thing is bizarre in my head. I'm glad I'm too sleep deprived for the pain to truly sink in.

... I want a room now. D: Please?

Wednesday, July 29, 2009


I haven't slept well for a while. Last night was the most sleep I got. Whoot. I spent some of this morning playing a fun game. Now I'm cleaning the sofa.

My memory is even more shot from the lack of sleep. I hope I can sleep more to-night but right now I feel tired from sleeping so much. That makes me mad. It makes me mad because I'm thinking that I might be up all night to-night because of it.


Anyhow. Muffins will be soon. They are yummy and my office loves them. Mmm.

Oh boy, I have to have my innards scanned. I'm sure everything is okay, but I'd rather be safe than sorry.

Sunday, July 26, 2009


My nerves tend to get the best of me. That's because this world is not right. A lot of us suffer from anxieties and fears that we shouldn't.

It's because none of us belong in this place. We created this place and it has put us so far out of place that we're all messed up, nervous, anxious, and on a lot more pills than any living should take.

My bad nerves are a product of this poorly designed place.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Dreams and Successes

Zombies. Zombies came and were invading where I live. They were everywhere and I had to grab an old sword we have to chop their heads off. I went into the bedroom so I could lock myself in and keep myself safe. But they came in through the fire escape. Then, after they were gone, a two headed zombie said that we had missed one. I killed it and chopped up the heads of another two headed zombie.

Then they came again. It was winter. We had a better plan and set up. We set traps for the zombies to slow them down. I met up with Miriam and she had my rabbit. The people who were taking care of him had let him get sick and he had spores on his fur. I was brushing them off and these two girls started popping them open. I asked them what they were doing and they told me they were getting high. I popped one open to smell it and could see how they could get high. I hoped I didn't infect myself with the zombie disease. As I was going back to our shelter I was stepping over obstacles ("How have the rules changed?" "The zombies are smarter now.") and I think I dropped my rabbit. When I got inside I didn't have him anymore and I hoped he'd be okay. Our room had one side with windows and some survival things. I told someone I lost my rabbit and not to tell my friend Melissa.

I think I woke up before this dream ended. I need a gun.

Success: I lost 3 pounds my first week on Weight Watchers! I'm so exited. My stomach's getting used to this new diet of mine, however so it feels funny and little uncomfortable. But my cousin says it happened to her too and all my friends say I should wait it out, that I'll adjust. I'm so happy, I know I'll be a nice healthy weight soon!

Current weigh in: 128

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Dream Land

Something about being in my old home. And something about my bank account being almost empty.

Then I was in toys r us or another form of toy shop. They were having a huge sale and they were selling these dinosaur toys. They made me think of Eric so I climbed to the top of the shelf to get one of everything. There was another shopper there looking to buy the toys too. One of the dinosaurs was called "Marijuana Sauras" or something to that effect. I think there was a g instead of an h. "Mariguana." It still meant the same thing. Then there was a big big dinosaur book. I grabbed it too hoping Eric didn't have one and brought it to the register. The guy tells me it'll be about a dollar something without the striped pencil and 6 dollars and something with it. I look at the pencil and decide I don't want it. It has the word "Staples" engraved into it. The guys tries to sell it to me and I say no.

I also remember thinking that I'm going to regret carrying the big book around but it was for Eric after all.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Weight Watchers

So I've been on Weight Watchers for the past 5 days. It's not that hard really, it's a sensible way to lose weight. It's also not a diet, in fact they want you to eat more! So now I'm making a menu for myself daily so that I can eat a lot of food without going over my POINTS allowance. It's easy and nice and the food they offer is yummy. :3

If you want to lose weight you should try. I plan on being 102 pounds in the next 4-5 months! Root me on! I'll be keeping a countdown of my weight too!

Last weigh-in (Sat, July 11): 131

Dream Land

We (me and a few friends) were at my step dad's old job. There was lots and lots of junk and things we were digging through. Some of it was cool, some not so cool. I found a small bed-like thing and tried to lay down on it. It was too small, I saw there was another section for it so I put it together and that made it long enough. Then it deflated and my friend told me she took it. I told her I wanted it back so she gave it back.

Then I was with my step dad and we were looking through my mom's old things. I remember her having some sort of mascot for the US Open. She had one it years ago in some sort of lottery. So I kept looking and looking and eventually found it. My step dad was getting sad and not wanting to talk about it. I was trying to figure out what year it was from and other things. There was a short scene where I was being miffed about not being able to use a computer at a hotel.

Then I was with this girl who loved purple more than anything. She took me to a dress shop and we were looking around. There were necklaces with animal heads. I chose a pink bunny head. She picked out a dress for me but it was blue. Still, it was nice and I pressed it against me to see how it looked. I started dancing around and imagining it was pink. It was so magical and nice. I could see it in pink so very clearly. I asked her if she could get it for me in pink (she was taking me shopping). A few times in the dream I "woke up", but every time I still had the necklace, only it was purple. We kept looking around the shop and we went to the register. She asked if there was anything else I want. In the display under the register were Sailor Moon items. One one them was a box of all the characters in chibi version with angel wings. Another one was Sailor Chibi Moon's wand! I looked at the price and it seemed fair. I opened the box to see the wand and it was so nice. I pressed a button and you could hear Chibi Moon go, "Moon spiral heart attack!" Which isn't what it's supposed to say but that's okay.

Then we were outside walking to my building. I looked up and saw a shooting star! I tried to tell my friend but she looked too late. I made a wish and slowly after that I woke up.

Friday, July 3, 2009


So my aunt has been avoiding me for months after we made an agreement for me to move in with her and pay her almost half her rent. Every so often I would ask her to talk to me, so we could talk it over or whatever. She never just tells me "no". She never says, "I change my mind."

So I go to hang out with my cousin Angela who is watching my aunt's place and she finds out. She flips her shit and calls her daughter to come over and kick us out. She doesn't tell anybody that she's sending her kid over. So all of a sudden, she (our cousin April, my aunt's daughter) comes in and kicks us out and treats us like shit basically.

My aunt sends me an e-mail on Face Book declaring that I was "trying out her place". Implying, basically, that I was trying to move in. I didn't even know I wasn't "allowed in the house" anymore. No one was ever told anything about me and the fact that I was banned from the place

She posts on Angela's Face Book saying that, " might try to move in or bring strangers into your home."

Angela was never told she couldn't hang out at the place, nor was she ever told she couldn't have friends or family over. My aunt wasn't mad at her, nor did she say anything, when she found out that Angela had her boyfriend over. So what the fuck?

Not to mention, she's acting like I kept begging her to move in when all I was doing was trying to figure out whether or not I was. We had an agreement, if she changed her mind she should have let me know.

Thursday, July 2, 2009


I got my Metamorphose lucky pack items to-day! Yay! Meta ships super fast! Wow!

So I got a red hoodie, a pink hoodie, a pair of socks, keychains, and a pair of shorts.

I'm very happy with all of my things! Now to lose some inches so the shorts will fit me!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Dress and shoes!


Anyhow. I was walking home yesterday when I saw the delivery man with his truck. I asked him if he stopped by my building and he looked at me while thinking. He remembered my name and said that he had a box he tried to deliver to another address but the people who answered didn't cooperate with my name.

You see, I spell it as Stephanny, so when the delivery man comes around he sees it and remembers it. Good thing too, for some reason he read the address as 3647 when it's 3447. It was strange that he read it wrong since the two 4s look the same and since down the line the apartment number is there and reads "6x". The 6 written down is 100% different from the two 4s. XD

Oh well, I got my box! That's what matters!

So I go upstairs and open it to see my dress packed nice and tight in this little box. I take it out to see my shoes underneath. I open the shoebox and die. Really, just died. They are soooo pretty! Holy cow! I love them!!!

Then I took out my dress from the wrapping and put it on in full Lolita gear. Oooo I am so cute! Heehee. Pics? Sure!

Me in my dress.

Friday, June 26, 2009


Mmm. Eggs. I love eggs. They are wonderful.

Now, onto the post. Food.

I made myself some brunch just now and as I was eating my egg sandwich I felt good. They always make me feel good. Then I started on my bacon. It was salty, strange, heavy, and made me feel like I was going to die. This made me think. Food should never make you feel like you're going to die.

Whenever a food makes my body feel this way I try to avoid it. I don't like the feeling of, "I'm not going to be here anymore," and especially with food! So I picked off the fat and only ate the meat. It was still salty, but it didn't make me feel horrible.

Food. Taste. Flavor. Appearance.
The way we live to-day, food is just something to shove into our mouths. To keep alive. But food is very emotional. From the way it looks to the way it tastes, and finally, the way it feels. Food should be prepared with love, for it tastes much better this way. It should be savored. Each bite, each chew. It should be felt. Eating is emotional. It can make us feel good, bad, or nothing at all.
The point is truly in making food make you feel good. You shouldn't feel heavy, only good. It shouldn't be a burden.

Think about it next time you cook or eat. Concentrate on the emotion and how it makes you feel. You'll see the difference.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


I got the lucky pack from Metamorphose! I'm hoping to get Sweet Lolita items so hope with me! Whee!

Monday, June 22, 2009


A lot of you may not know what that is. Lolita. A lot of people only relate it to a sexual complex.

Indeed, it is that, but it is also a fashion statement that has swept Japan and is coming over here.
Lolita fashion is about dressing up similar to little girls of the Victorian age. It is not meant to be sexual, but some people may see it this way.

I love this fashion, I have one dress now, a dress and shoes on the way, and hopefully more clothes that will come in a "lucky pack" if I win it. It's very pretty with frills and bows and such. I can't wait until my new clothes come in. I will spam with photos! PHOTOS!

Anyhow, much love to my readers. Muah. :3

Friday, June 5, 2009


So I've been on Vacation for the past week and it's been flippin' awesome! Without having to go to work I have more energy to go out and DO stuff. So there.

My YoSD Four sisters arrived and she is ADORABLE! I friggen love her to death and I'm soo glad that I was able to get her. I already have a bunch of photos of her on photobucket and facebook. :3

Eric and I went to Great Adventure on Wednesday and let me tell you, it's AWESOME to go on a weekday!!! NO LINES! Whooooo!!!! So yeah. We went on all the good rides, 'cept Kingda Ka 'cause it's down. But still. We had a great time and was able to do everything we wanted to do in a fraction of the time it takes to do it! Teehee. :3

Art Theif

So there's an art theif running amok in the doll community. She basically over paints photos of dolls and things and makes tons of money from it. I hope she chokes.

I want to "over paint" my dolls just to show how lame she is. >:O

That's all for nizz-ow.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

New Angel

I have an angel coming home! She is the small version of my Volks SD Four Sisters. The Four Sisters is the first doll Volks released and so for their tenth anniversary they released a special version of them. They are known as YoSD Four Sisters. YoSD is a 10 inch sized doll (as opposed to their 24 inch doll) that's a little "angel" that fits in your hand.

I've wanted this doll since before anyone knew they were going to come out and I'm so happy that she's on her way! I can't wait until she arrives! Picture spam is soon!

For now, a link to the profile for YoSD Megu

Saturday, May 16, 2009


There is no justice sometimes. Truly, no justice at all...

But, dolls! My friend wants to buy a doll I want to sell and I want her to have it too, but she doesn't have any money. I really want this other doll but I can't get it without selling the first one. Waaaahahahhaa. I really want someone to buy it. D: I want my friend to have it too, but at this point I want anyone to have it. Hehe. Mainly because the company that sells the doll I want is giving away free face-ups from May 20 to June 10. Waaaant. Face-ups cost $40 from this company so it would save me a good amount of money.

Wish me luck? D:

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


I love my Eric more than anyone else in the world, but I do not love sharing his germs. He was becoming sniffly a few days ago and now I am sniffly. Beh. But part of me likes it, it's like we're that close or something. I can't explain.

Sadness: I only just found out my bunny died. I left him in my ex's care and he died. He died September 27 so to find out on Mother's Day was pretty hard. I'm mad at my ex for not taking better care of him. If he paid more attention, my bunny would still be here. My heart aches for the lost life.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Y to the A to the Y

My laptop doesn't need repairing, but the wire does! All this stress and heartache.. and for what? For it to be a wire malfunction. This is super yay. So now my next move is to try and fix the wire, or get a new one that won't break down on me so quickly. Damn bootleggers. XD

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Friday, May 1, 2009


I had a dream about my favorite comic book character. Been a while, actually.

So Johnny (that's his name) was doing his thing and being Johnny. Killing people and such. When suddenly he's in a therapist's office and doesn't know how or when he got there. The therapist is scolding him. "Johnny, you've only been here once a month for the past three months. If we're going to help you, you have to come to your sessions."

Then it cuts to him being outside again, killing people and such. Black out. He wakes and thinks to himself, "Wow, I feel good. Refreshed. Like I just woke up-- Shit! I slept!" He hates sleeping. Suddenly, a medical crew come and strap him in a straight jacket and take him to a clinic. There, he is treated and "recovers" and gets better!

I go to his therapist and I'm asking her about Johnny. I think I'm interviewing her. "What happened to him?" I ask.

"Well after he recovered he went out to help another patient who was in a coma. (I'm guessing he was helping to make her recover and wake again.) When she did wake, she rejected him and he never forgave himself after that."

Then it cuts to the scene where Johnny is holding the young woman. She wakes up and says she doesn't want to be with him. He's hurt and asks her why. She rejects him again and he kills her, going back to his old ways and killing people again.

Thursday, April 30, 2009


Sometimes things seem to move so terribly slowly. Or quickly?

For example, if I haven't posted here in two days, it feels like it's been a week.

"Oh, I haven't posted in my blog thing in forever! *Goes to Blogger* ...only 2 days ago? Whut?"

Yes, it bugs me a lot. :|

Saturday, April 25, 2009


God, Six Flags was fun! It was a lot of waiting but it was always worth it. Kinga Ka(k) is fucking sweet! Hehehehe. So is El Toro, I also loved Nitro!!! NITROOOOO!!! But nothing's better than El Toro! Though when we got home I was looking through my friend's coaster magazine and it was like...

We also met some people my friend Melissa knows. She's part of a Coater Enthusiast group and they're so obsessed, it's funny. And they all seem to know each other. That's always nice, being part of a small community and stuff.

It was a good day, my legs hurt, and I can't freaking wait 'till next week! Whoo!!!

PS. The ducks at Six Flags are freaking rude! I walked up to one and it gave me the stink eye and walked away. What the hell?

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


So lessie...

I'm working on getting my shit together to get registered for classes!

I took my COA exam and I'm waiting for the second half! Woot!

My laptop has a part that's dying and I need someone who knows how to solder. D:

I joined the FREE HUGS campaign! It's tons of fun!

And I think that's it. :3 Hope everyone's doing well!

Monday, April 13, 2009


So yes it's not Easter anymore.. (unless you're in Canada) but yes.

So on Friday I went to my friend's place after work we hung out and had girly tiem. Yay! XD Then in the morning we all drove to Six Flags! Yay! And for what? For the park to be closed. .__. Oh well, I registered my Season Pass and can go ANY TIME I WANT~! Hehe. Can you drive? I can get you in free on certain days. Teehee.

Sunday. I went to see Eric. We were supposed to go out but it was too cold! Brr! So we stayed in and played videogames. Kinda. We had a really good day. Eric showed me some of his old things. :3 It was a good day. Sigh. ^___^ So I'm a happy bunny. Happy happy! See you later!

Monday, April 6, 2009

Dreams to Nightmares

So I had one of those "the end of the world as we know it" dreams. It went something like this:

It started with me putting some strings back into an instrument, then it became a doll then it became a hamster.
Then the hamster was evil and we had to run from it, then the thing we were running from was something else entirely.
There was something about electronic equipment that we had to help us survive. Maybe some sort of tracking/GPS device.

Yeah. I blame Wonder Showzen and cupcakes. XD

Sunday, April 5, 2009


For lack of a better title.

So recently I found out that one of my "friends" who agreed with me that my friends who have parties and hang out without even calling to see if I was free suck, did just that. Had a party or something without calling me.

It pisses me off so bad. I mean come on! There's more to it too, but I don't feel like posting publicly. I just need to let it out.

I just don't like being lied to. I don't lie to you so don't lie to me. RESPECT: It's a two way street.


Saturday, April 4, 2009


The Dot and the Line: A Romance in Lower Mathematics

I've always loved this one:

Friday, April 3, 2009


It was sometime in December of 2006. I was with my YEP (Youth Employment Program) group and someone was asking me which "public school" I went to. I wasn't sure what they meant since ALL the schools I went to were, by definition, "public schools". So I named all the ones I remember, or only my High School. I don't remember fully now. I eventually understood that they meant ELEMENTARY school. So I was all, "Ohh, you mean elementary school," and gave them names.

Suddenly, I'm being told that I need to learn to "talk like them." What? I was so thrown by that. I didn't know what to say.

The following is what I wish I did say:

Me: I'll just bite my tongue instead of yours.
Her: What's that supposed to mean?
Me: Fine, let me put it in LOW mans' terms: I'm not gunna say anythin' 'cause I don' wan' no trouble.
Her: Excuse me?
Me: What? You said I gotsta talk like dis.
Her: *Probably seething right now.*
Me: Waz wrong? You said I gotta talk like dis. I mean, I used to talk like a foo' when I wuz younger, but den I decided not to sound all ignant. Ya know?

And I probably would have gotten in trouble. But it would have been well worth it. I mean, come on! Just because you're an ignorant fuck doesn't mean everyone else has to be one too. Honestly, this is supposed to be a professional environment: EDUCATE YOURSELF.

And then they wonder why people still call them "nigger"*.

People these days.

* Nigger: Racial insult towards people of dark skin; meaning: ignorant.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


I love you. You guys have always been great. Especially when it comes to your sense of humor. But honestly? That panda is scary! (Uh oh, CADIE is gonna get me, isn't she?)

Monday, March 30, 2009

Big News

I got accepted to Lehman College! Whoo!! I also found out that if I can keep a B average, I can get a small amount of reimbursement from my job! Yay! I'm so happy! :3

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Easter Announcement

Seeing as Easter is coming soon I feel I should write something about what happens to Bunnies during this time. I plan on cross posting this around in some places. You are free to cross post this as well!

It seems that every year when Easter comes around bunnies are being bought in droves. Of course they would! They become trendy and people want them. Some of these people might actually do this responsibly and only buy a Bunny if they can care for it. Sadly, many Bunnies are bought without foresight for children and friends, or even for yourself. Soon, these Bunnies become unwanted. They're too much work, they got too big, their "landlord won't let them keep it".

This leaves many Bunnies in a lot of trouble. Some are abandoned on the street, some are set free in parks. People don't seem to understand that this is dangerous, these tame Bunnies cannot survive on their own like that. This also puts rescue places under a lot of stress because they suddenly have all these Bunnies and no real way to feed or house them all!

So please, if you need to buy a Bunny for Easter this year, get a stuffed one. They're just as cute, a lot less work, they won't grow, they don't need to eat, and your landlord won't mind!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Dear Diary,

I have insomnia again. I should use it to be more productive. Hmm.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Hey guys!

Hey, I found out that you can turn off the capchas on your comment box. Go to Settings -> Comments. There you will see a whole bunch of settings. The capchas annoy the hell out of me, so I turned them off on my journal. Just letting you know!

Also, I noticed that Blogger doesn't e-mail you when you get comments, so I've been missing my comments! In the last box of the settings, I put in my own address so I'll get emails when I get a comment from you guys! Yay! :3

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Happy St. Patric's Day!

So to-day is St. Patty's! After work I went out to meet my friend Alyssa, her brother Josh, and her friend Edgar. We could only hang out for so long before Alyssa and Josh had to go. I hung out with Edgar for a while, trying to have fun with him. Sometimes you don't get along with people. Not that he annoyed me or pissed me off, we just didn't click. I went home and saw that my phone was gone! No! I just had it! I went to look for it and it wasn't far, yay!

After finding my phone, I saw that my Federal refund check came! Super yay!

I can't wait until April when I can move out again, and I'll have the money to do so! :3 (My Grama says that me staying here until April is too long. Huh. Go figure.)

I also can't wait until Saturday! A surprise for me! Oooooooh! :o

Sunday, March 15, 2009


So the weekend wasn't terrible. I got my money back but now I need a place to keep my rat! Eric's mom refuses to let Eric watch him... But she let Eric have a ferret, and ferrets REEK! Gah. That woman is something else. So now I need a rat sitter. Woe is me.

Friday, March 13, 2009


So to-day is my favorite Anti-Holiday and we have 3 this year! Three! This is the second. The third one is in November, my birth month! Whoo! Haha. I love dressing up in all black and carrying my black cat around. TEEHEE.

So I had to move back in with my grama's because I found a bedbug in my bed at the other house. The man didn't want me bringing in exterminators, was very nasty, and blew me off. He said since I only found one, I don't have to worry. WAT?

His treatment to me was so bad that I decided to leave. His wife was sad and she was very nice. How is it that nice people get involved with asshats?

So I made some calls and hopefully I'll be moving again in April with someone I know who's super cool and nice. Wish me luck!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Feeling blue?

Have a look-see. This doll has an option part that makes it an MP3 player! Rock on, little dolly, rock on.

This sort of makes me want to modify my own doll and turn her into an MP3 player.

Hot damn.

So recently I haven't had much to report. My co-worker's baby is alright and most things are going fine.

Then I got a call. It isn't a bad call, not in the least. But it was surprising and news worthy.

I had taken a course of action and I hoped it would go through. I hoped that problem would be dealt with and taken care of. Getting that phone call answered that. So now things will go as they should and I am pleased and a little scared. I know everything will be alright though.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Too early...

Ah, sleep. A most precious thing. Well, that depends on the day of the week as I sometimes wish I didn't HAVE to sleep.

Last night I went to bed at 1:30 thinking I didn't have to get up until 12 to-day. Oh how wrong I was. I got a call at 7:30 stating my co-worker can't come in as her daughter dis-located her arm. Ow. Being as the baby's only three, I can imagine the trauma.

So at 8 I got up and got ready for work. The plus side? I make the 40 hours I thought I wasn't going to get since we were snowed out on Monday. Yay-ish. Heh.

So I'm here and tired.

Some random updates:
I went to the Library in my area to hopefully get some work done on any one of my projects. It turns out the Library is the best place to be. I continued work on my flash movie that hasn't been touched since sometime in 2008. Key framing's a bitch, let me tell you. But it looks magnificent.

Sadly, this groove was ruined by my ex's sheer lack of responsibility and the need for food. Ah well.

The great love series "There She is!!!" By Sambakza was completed in December! And I didn't learn this until last night! Here's a link to their page: SamBakZa
You have to watch these, they are super sweet.

Also, Ninjai: The Little Ninja is still a great series. Check it out: Ninjai

Last, and most definately not least is Gunnerkrigg Court. This is a must read from start to present. Here's a link to page one: Gunnerkrigg Court

And eating popcorn for breakfast. Yay.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Morning Musings

I woke up with the Tiny Toon Adventures theme song in my head. Something's wrong. I get up and brush my teeth and rub my eyes. Something's wrong. I look at my watch and think "DAMN! Last time I checked, it was 8:20. Something's wrong. I look at my cellphone and wonder why it didn't go off. Something's wrong. I look at my sound settings all confused. Then I turn on my laptop and the time jumps. Again. What?

Daylight savings.

I have never been as messed up as I was this morning with Daylight savings. I slept in and everything because of it. D: Geh, I want to shoot someone.

Right now I'm trying to find a good PSX emulator. Wish me luck.

Friday, March 6, 2009


Greetings my fellow humanz. I am here to bandwagon along with two of my friends.

So I haven't /kept/ a journal in a long time. Months maybe. And years if you want to get into online journals. This is something I think I should do though. It helps with my memory and I'll be able to go back and see what was what and when.

So I made this to join my friends Jose and Alyssa. They're some of most awesomest people I know. They both play guitar and have a love for music that makes me wish I was related. Hehe.

My special someone, Eric, is going to "Ugh!" when I tell him about this. Hehe. Especially since the site directly uses the word "blog", which I hate*. Mmmyup. He's also against posting your life publicly, but I know what I want to say "aloud" and what I want to keep private. I also know I can protect my entries all I want, so there.

So here will be musings and life of a Synesthetic Soul.

Here's a link for anyone who doesn't know what Synesthesia is: